moi thoughts
Friday, January 7, 10:06 PM
acc my mum to dye her hair tis late morning.. she was supposed to dye few days back but she changed her mind so went with her today. Yah I was der for like 3 hrs.. luckily i occupied myself by writing a letter to ling.. was replying her letter.. & guess wat i wrote abt 3 pages -woot- all da best to her when reading it..muhahaha

hmm wrote lots lots of stuff to her... all tat i wanted to say to her... all tat she wasnt aware of.. sumtyms i rather write den tok to her face to face.. cuz i find it a lil hard to say it in front of her.. mayb cuz its a lil awkward?! dun realy noe how to describe tat feeling.. perhaps its da pride in me... neway i feel tat we shldnt keep ours thoughts n feelings to ourselves.. many tyms when things happened to us.. we juz let it pass us w/o even solving it.. i juz feel tat we are always escaping from da problems. We will juz go on a 'silent period' & then aft tat we talk again... sumhow i feel.. it isnt gd.. cuz der are still all tis 'problems' accumlated in us. I told her in da letter tat we shld to b open to one another n nt keep everything to ourselves cuz it might juz cause some misunderstandings. da other tym when we were in a 'silent period' bcuz of da job thinggy.. i was mad at her cuz she seems cant b bothered abt it.. she din show tat she care.. and i din noe she actually care.. it was when i read da letter tat she wrote to me recently.. den i came to noe abt it.. she was very upset abt wat had happened.. she shld have told me earlier... tis is wat i called tat kind of 'misunderstandings'. I really hope tat der will b openess in tis friendship... i believe by saying it out instead of holding all back to urself will be a better way... so tat both parties will noe how each other feels... hmm... after all these had happened.. so much so much... i realised quite a lot of things.. tat we each have our own weaknesses.. differences.. & i have begin to learn how to accept another person for who he/she is.. no one is perfect cuz man will fail... even b4 judging da other party.. i shld have first look at myself.. whether im lyk tat... i have no rights to judge cuz im nt perfect myself! Oso.. I've learn not to hold on onto someone so tightly... sometyms we just have to let go.. by holding on so tightly.. it just hurts more... I noe tat all these happened for a reason & im thankful to God tat He is teaching me and moulding me.. cuz all these kept happened again n again.. it can be painful at tyms... difficult at tyms but i noe He has the best for me and in Him i find da security.. love and strength to even go thro all these trials. When.. I faced da same problem again n again... n wen it juz hurts me again.. i tink its only until u've learn it.. and it will become easier n easier each tym... as i struggle each tym... as it becums more difficult.. after falling & standin up again... finally its really much easier now to let go! it is just getting lighter each tym :) Thank God even for all these mountains tat He has put in my life... cuz only thro all these trial.. i will grow stronger and put my security in Him alone... :)