Sunday, November 30, 10:07 AM
it was a great saturday yesterday! went to sentosa with dear & his friends. at night, with his family to celebrate the brothers' belated birthday. we had steamboat at bei shang chuan at vivo. GREAT day uh! ever since I started working, most saturdays are occupied with work & nothing else. sometimes, I really want the normal working hours but I know its not the time now to make a change. I need the experience and pay! yups, I need to work harder when I am still young.

Received a news yesterday.. perhaps a bad one when I first heard.
I struggled very much at first when I heard I am deployed to other place to work again! My reaction was like WHAT me again?! X9*%EI@#(*@! Seriously, I was damn fed up! My dearest NM said every staff nurses will have their turn once! Me? This is my second time being deployed! What is fairness??????!!!! Argh~ I called her up and asked, the explanation she gave was because of the timing. Just because the other place need staff now and just the "right" time I came back from AL, I will be the one! I am such a lucky girl right?! She added thats her policy and no one can change it?! MC and AL became a scary thing uh, anytime can get deployed! At first, I was like complaining this and that but I felt I missed out an important factor. Yes, I will still feel its unfair and I do not like her so called policy BUT deployment is not a bad thing overall. I still get the same pay anyway, in the end I gain much more too and better performanace since i am willing to be deployed. I mean where's my choice right? I still have to go. I told myself, I will not focus on the fairness, I will just focus on the job! Sometimes, we really need to cool down before we can think rationally (:

Saturday, November 29, 12:35 AM
I didnt know she struggled so much. I didnt know it hurts her so much. A letter revealed the truth. I struggled as I read on, feeling hurt, feeling regrettful, feeling remorseful, feeling just bad. On the other hand, I kept reflecting what I have done to her. Sorry is the word I could say. I will be a better me from now on. I realised after reflecting on my own attitude, I am rather harsh towards you like as if you owe me a big debt. Sorry I am really sorry, I didnt know I've hurt you so much. You want the respect and yes I will give you the respect even though at times I do not feel respected. I must learn to give and take, I am like a spoiled brat, throwing all the tantrums towards my close ones.

I want to change. Lord, teach me patience, teach me love, teach me persevere.
Put many trials in my life and make me go through all just to learn.

There's a cry in my heart
For Your glory to fall
For Your presence to fill up my senses
There's a yearning again
A thirst for discipline A hunger for things that are deeper

Could You take me beyond?
Could You carry me through?
If I open my heart?
Could I go there with You?
For I've been here before
But I know there's still more
Oh, Lord, need to know You

For what do I have If I don't have You, Jesus?
What in this life Could mean any more?
You are my rock You are my glory
You are the lifter Of my head
Lifter of this head


Thursday, November 27, 3:12 PM















Had a reunion with a few of my primary school classmates last night! We had a GReaaat time together (: Indulging in reminiscence with one another! We laughed about the silly things we did when we were young, we talked about each others' crush.. etc! oh dear, felt like we've grown up so much! Really thank God that this gathering was successful, 99% of those we contacted turned up. Only one didnt turn up due to an acceptable reason (: Del! please join us the next outing okie! Yups, we took many pictures too..

im home the whole day today, packing my room and preparing some stuffs. finally, I had some rest after going out for the past few days! (: im online since morning, read some news on yahoo and found out about the bombing and gunshots at India. I pondered for awhile and asked myself what is this world becoming? Why all the killings must happen? Where is the love for one another? Argh.. felt frustrated and upset! truly very sad to see people dying in such ways. I prayed a little prayer for the lost, for those who lost their love ones. May the love and peace of God be with them...

Lord, are you coming back to bring us home?

Wednesday, November 26, 2:56 PM
I am officially on AL from 24th nov to 29th nov! feeling *blissful*.. :D
let me do some updates on the week.
on the 24th nov was my dearest boy's 24th Birthday! At first, we planned to go for the flyers however due to some common reasons, we decided on a field trip instead to.... PULAU UBIN! (:
I am glad that we are both doing so much for our planned plan! Pulau Ubin has changed so much! What was in my memories wasnt like it now.. it has became quieter. Nevertheless, we still enjoyed as much with each others' company. Here are some picturs,




Had an enjoyable trip!
on the 25th, I fell sick, diagnosed with throat infection along with a slight fever. I was very obedient, the first thing I did when I opened my eyes was to call and book an appt with the Dr! I wanted to get well fast so I could enjoy my AL. I did see a Dr, took meds and rested. Had dinner with dear's family at night. We went to da jie's place to play mahjong as planned however dear and I were attracted to the Wii instead. Hahahas! In the end, the both of us were playing with the Wii games. It was fun especially the Wii exercises, we actually sweat!
On the 26th which is today, I will be having a primary school classmates gathering in the evening. I am looking forward to see them! I guess it has been like ten over years since I last met some of them?! Wow! time flies..
Anyway, I received mui's sms in the morning! I am the first she smsed, touched(: I love you mui! Hope u have an enjoyable trip at HK! I want to say, "Happy Pact Day" in advance to you too! :D Thank God for this special friendship!
smileandIwillsmiletoo. simple yet means alot (: