in a few mins time... it will be the end of 2005!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR to everybody! =)
may 2006 be a fruitful year for all of us!

Just want to thank those who walk me through the different seasons of 2005.... thanks for being there =)
love you loads!
I went shopping with kay on thurs. met her at potong pasir around 1pm den we waited for alson to pass us the presents.. (ps thks for the chipmunks.. they are really cute!) hahaa hope u like the tshirt too.. sorry din noe tt u wear M?! lol i went to get a L.. that shows that u should eat more.. ur new year resolution la =) hahaa!

yea enjoyed shopping with kay lots.. she really bought a lot of stuffs! more than I do! lol.. i bought a new tote bag from reef.. its pink in colour with lots of hua! hahaa kay and leb said it wasnt really nice.. den another moment they said its okayy... trying to fu yan wo! hmph most impt is I like it lah.. hehes =p
Chris joined us later on to shop at bugis village.. both of them bought a tote bag.. very nice.. was tempted to get it too.. =x but i did not.. =)
the later part was.. i went to PS with kay and leb to look for xq,keith & dong seng.. we went to the foodcourt to eat and slack.. we were playing a lot of 'cold' games.. hahaha it was very funny! in the end xq and dongseng did the forfeit and its the 3 bears forfeit again =)) wahahahaa it has become the 'standard' thing now! LOL
thats about my thursday=) tata
okay i can predict that this entry is going to be short =) eh.. just woke up not long ago from my sleep.. I am really very tired! slept at about 10pm just now. yeah dont know why i woke up too.. ohh i remember because my room was quite warm. lol.. yeaaa.. thats the reason! =/ i think i will go back to sleep sooon.. yesterday slept at 6am! hais lack of sleep @-@
ps: sorry to those who called me.. guess you all are asleep now?! will get back to you okies =) night peeps ****
surprised that I blog at this time.. like in the middle of the night.. sighs its 4.30am now! i cant sleep.. suffering from a partial insomnia.. =/ so i have decided to blog and do anything that i would online.. just to keep myself entertained.. i am burning a cd for my dad now.. cuz he wanted the drangoste din ste song.. and since then he has been asking me. yeah i gave him the reason that i am busy.. haha i felt bad after that.. i mean it is a small favour that he is asking.. so i've decided to burn it for him now. =) hmm he is going overseas tomorrow.. hope this will make him happy =)

hmm guess the girls are still awake now, i msg meowie just now.. ard 3 plus and they are all still awake watching harry potter. how i wish i would be there.. sighs!

hmm... at least I spend my day with them.. hehe the party was great! we had loads of food.. yummy i ate lots of cheesecakes.. think around 4! =x i really think it is super NICE! (nessa u can set up a mini business and start selling them) hehe.. the rest of the food were nice too... had a great dinner! =) yep we played the 'sua ku' game (outcome: the winners go to shanel and meowie) =) and we watched movies too.. haha halfway though.. after that we exchanged our presents.. i got nessa's present.. thanks gal! love it all.. esp the dog.. cuz it has a meaning to it! LOL think u really should record my laughter so that i can be convinced ;)

overall I had a great day! heh thats about it =) byes

the exchanges =)

mysweeties
merry christmas! 2 more mins and thats the end of christmas!
I am feeling so tired while typing this entry... yawns..

yesterday had cell gathering at justin's place.. it was so so fun!! hahaa his house has so many things that can entertain us.. things like, play station, snacks & food (quite a lot), karaoke, computer and mahjong! seong hoon (my dong seng) and I combined for the mahjong and we won 4 rounds straight.. hehes~ we were so excited lah.. it was quite funny =) yea we played treasure hunt except for justin and I because we planned it.. hahaa i felt the excitement seeing them searching high and low for the 'treasures'... hahaha =x den in end team A did the forfeit.. guess wads the forfeit?! nana came out with the 3 bears song from full house.. LOL.. seong hoon was supposed to dance and sing and we all did it with him.... it was very very very funny esp the actions! so cute!! =] i just wouldnt stop laughing everytime i see the video. hmm.. we stayed over at justin's place in the end.. it was a last min decision though. yah i slept for abt 2 hours.. den left his place at abt 6am.. audris and I were like 'stoning' throughout the journey home.. tired! ... den went home to change.. after that i went over to audris's place. we took our breakfast at mac. den we went to simei to meet the rest for service =)

after service, I went over to orchard to meet up with lala. it was super crowded!! I got squeezed out of the train by some 'unkind' people! dun understand why cant they wait.. argh! so kiasu lah

erm.. met up with lala at orchard den we headed down to yew tee .. were on our way to sf's place.. the journey was not as long as i expected it to be.. maybe because there's someone beside me. haha think I slept for awhile in the train.. my eyelids were so heavy at that point of time. even now too. =/ we had a change in our plan, at first we planned to cook at sf's place but in the end, we decided to buy pizza =) so we went to Lok 1 and bought pizza from pizza hut. we waited for 35mins! =/ took a cab back to sf's place (thks lala for the ride) =) yeaa.. i ate 4 pieces of pizzas lah... feel so fat now =( so full! I really prefer hawaiian pizza to any other flavor. we watched sky high and I was sleeping in the middle of the movie... Cody was sleeping with me too.. guess he got tired running around the house.
I think he is VERY cute cuz he knows how to pose wen u want to take a pic of him =) haahaa smart doggy! ;)

I enjoyed every moment spend with u guys =)
cynthiamarcuscara aka yayasflala- buddiesforlife =)
you all will always be in my heart
memoriesthattouchesmyheart
loveyouallloads

PS (It is not the end of my christmas gathering, there is another one tomorrow which is the last one. wee.. cant wait for it to come! girls cant wait to see you all) =) counting down!

always.and.forever

our.christmas.pizza=)
I watched king kong yesterday at plaza sing.
it was screened for 3 hours! at first it was quite boring.. it is only when the people reached the island.. it became very exciting. I think King Kong is soo soo cute.. i am in love with him.. hahaha.. he looks esp cute when he is angry with ann.. and the way he protected her was really touching! and i cried at the last part.. ='( he died!! sighs poor king kong!.............

okies lets not talk about.. its just a movie.. =S..
yeah christmas is coming.. 2 more days!! yay.. cant wait for the parties..
i still need to get 3 more presents... oh no.. i better be more efficient!
I am back from the camp 2 days ago! hmm.. my feelings after the camp were sort of a mixed kind.. firstly i felt quite confuse with the things going on during some of the sessions. i guess only meowie can understand how i felt cuz the both of us have some common thoughts. I felt that this camp was emphasizing too much on winning, it was competitive.. that i would see how realistic this world can be.. how one can break the trust in order to win.. just because of the word WIN! hahaa.. it sounds cruel.. yeah i have experienced that in the camp. hmm there's a part whereby the instructor asked us, 'we play to win or we play to lose', he was trying to get the message to us that we play to win.. yeah i agreed to a certain extent that we play to win.. i mean we should set goals in lives and try to achieve them but what if we didnt succeed.. does that mean that we are failures? this was one topic that someone in a way 'debated' with the instructor, the student was saying that it is when we lose.. we will gain much more.. so that we learn from our mistakes and improve on.. for me i agreed on wad he said. the instructor agreed it too.. i felt that it is the way he teaches, it is nt clear enough and it might be the reasons why we disagreed.. so the best solution is to clarify things with him.. and that was what some of the students did on the last day of the camp.. it caused the session to go on for 1hr plus when it was supposed to be only half an hr.

i felt that everyone has their own point of view, thats why we think and act differently.. so we cant possibly change one person's perspective with ur own.. and i felt that the values each has are different too. in this camp.. they showed 'leadership' as something so 'wow'.. hope u can wad i mean.. cant think of a word.. =x yeah.. like so 'domineering'... i guess all of us should work together as a team and not about one man show. yes i agreed on a point the instructor said.. he said that in a team, there cannot be no 'I' meaning myself.. the 'I' refers individual.. nt individualism cuz we dont play our own game.. we played as a team. but we need to be there so the game can play on. hmm i discovered some things about myself too in this camp, there was a voting session in our own small group and each of us are given one ice cream sticks each to vote. there were 12 members in a small group, each of us is supposed to stand and hold a cup so that the members can vote.. that moment was quite intense.. cuz the truth will surfaced.. we were supposed to vote according to whether that person has given in her/his 100% during the camp. yea.. i think i was the fifth or sixth person that went up.. at first.. i thought there will be one or two votes.. hmm but there were 6 people who voted for me.. but i didnt vote myself reason being is because.. i noe i have not given my 100%.. i noe i can push myself more but i didnt.. my mentor in the grp asked me why did i stopped halfway.. he said that i was halfway there? wad made me stop there? haha i can still remember what he asked me loh.. yeah he is the mr WHY guy.. he just loves to ask why.. i think it is good cuz it makes u think more.. more about yourself. yeah i told him it is because i didnt want to move out of my comfort zone.. and he said yes.. that is why. hmm i guess that is the main reason why it stopped me from achieving more. yep i recognised this not just during this camp but it is something that i've always been struggling.. and i felt that it is time that i should take one step away from that zone. I believe that we can reach up to our 100% if we want to. I have seen the impossible during the camp esp from chewie.. chew if ur reading this.. i just want to say that, u've really given ur 100% during this camp.. i noe u told me that u were forced to.. but still u actually did all those things that u never thought of yourself doing right.. at least for me.. i felt that way.. haha u really impressed me! =)

thats about the camp.. tata

the dynamites
I went for service at expo as usual den after service we went for a jog at the park.=) love being with my cell =) yeps.. after that dris, yiting and I decided to go TM for dinner.. and we ate kfc.. o noo.. i have been eating fast food for the past 3 days! =( I need to go on a diet!
we went shopping..of course! eh bought some earrings again..=x and some christmas presents=)
it was great hanging out with yiting n dris.. esp yiting.. i have always wanted to go out with her (dris will feel mad after she reads this)heehee.. and until today.. we finaally went out together (ps: gal i love u loads) feel happy being with you.. hehe so mushy yeah... btw im straight hor.. yiting is like a sister to me =) thou she calls me her baby and i call her my mama.. lols! yeah hope we will go out soon again.. =) hmm.. going to end here now.. need to pack my camp stuffs.. dun miss me.. will be back on wednesday! =p hope the camp will be fun!
today went out with kay and ting to bugis.. we went to bugis junction first.. went to walk around and it was super crowded lah.. saw so many nice stuffs =) okie im saving up cuz i need to buy christmas presents! hahaa after that we went to bugis village... ahhh... i saw more nice stuffs that i like there.. im bringing my mum there.. wahahaha yah she can pay for me =) am i smart?! *evil laugh* yaah.. i bought something today.. haha cant go back empty handed lah.. eh i bought 3 pairs of earring for $1o.. and i took neoprints.. yah these are wad i bought today.. not a lot right?! i tried my best to resist =/ yeps.. after that we took a cab back to kay's house.. (*thks for the paying the cab fare) =) yeaa.. wen we reached home.. so many people have arrived.. all my aunties and uncles. have to call one by one =/ hahaa.. hmm after awhile when everyone has arrived.. our steamboat feast started! okayy la.. i din really eat that much.. cuz i was quite full.. maybe bcuz i took a mushroom swiss burger before going back home.. argh shldnt have ate the burger =( *the birthday celebration was alright, we got to see each other after so long.. cuz it is only during chinese new year and granny's birthday that we get to see each other.. yeahh... maybe thats why we are not very close to one another?! hope they will have more gatherings.. to bring the family closer! i really wish it will happen =) i hope granny feels happy today =) happy birthday po po ! I love her loadsssssss!

happy17thbirthday 

belaihtiysirhc 

love you loads! 
had a great day today!went out with iybelsirhc to celebrate mei's birthday=) first we went cine to watch saw 2 (ps: dun ever watch it! i was terrified ! its sooo gruesome ='( dun tok abt it anymore) yeahh.. if there will be saw 3, i will definitely NOT watch it! haahaa.. okayys.. after that 'gruesome' show.. we went to take neoprints.. took one with the 4 of us in it den another one was yi and myself, love it loads!=] yups the next destination we went was suntec.. went to take our dinner at swensen! hahaha i guess mei had loads of surprises in there right.. i hope so! lol~ though somethings cropped up.. i wonder was it a surprise afterall.. but i guess ur touched ? are u? =) hehe.. u better be! =x yah love the earthquakes loads.. and i was super full after eating my seafood pasta.. so we were all trying our best to finish the earthquake! and of cuz we finshed it=) yeaa.. hmm let me tink where we went next?! ohh.. to the fountain.. leb and chris went to made a dedication earlier on to yi.. haha thats very sweet of them.. yep we were sitting at the fountain listening to songs... so nice yea! the last place we went was sky garden.. we went there to play with the fire sparkle.. leb and i made a heart shape out of the fire sparkles for yi.. heh it turned out to b quite successful. yea thats abt my day! im so so tired now.. going to bed! yawns! neway just want to say i've enjoyed myself loads.. and i bet u guys too yea ;)

iybelrishcsparksofmylife =)

happy 17th birthday ah mui =)
yay~ today is the second last day of school =) i cant wait for tomorrow to arrive cuz there are 2 reasons. first, its the last day of school n second, it is yi's birthday *winks* hope it will be an enjoyable day.. and i know it will definitely be ;) hmm this week was great though it was quite stressful studying for 2 papers.. had my clinical assessment on monday, psychology paper and 1o29 ica on wed.. phew~ its all over now. thank God that i passed my clinical! it was really a miracle! and i am able to go for the attachment ;) oh ya the shift was out yesterday, all of us who are posted to ttsh are all in the same shift.. so happy! no more lonely days.. haha =) yups im looking forward for the attachment!
got to go now to prepare for school =) tata

a thankful spirit=)
*thinking* I dont know what I want to blog =/ just feel like blogging. I came back home at abt 3.45pm and till now I dont know what I've done.. I was practically stuck in front of my comp! thats bad =x.. sighs~ we are having psychology paper tml.. and I am in front of my comp =/ dont really have the mood to study.. feeling tireed... erm.. luckily the holiday is here soon.. finally can rest! actually not exactly.. there are so many things to do during the 2 weeks break. next mon to wed.. going back to school for a leadership camp.. its about training to be an OGL for the new batch of yr1.. hmm ya something like that.. and we are going to have many activities.. ! I was quite reluctant to go.. but because of what meowie said, i thought about it and have decided to go=) yeah we must make good use of these 3 yrs and have beautiful memories that we can hold on together =) PS ( vanessa! if ur reading this.. pls dont be lazy and go for the camp! I am going too.. so being lazy cannot be an excuse.. u hear me! ) =) im waiting for ur reply! hahaha ;) ehh besides the camp, there are other activities during the holiday.. like christmas parties, ex-kc gathering, etc... hahaha guess its gonna be fun yea! looking forward to all =) meanwhile.. i guess i better go off and study for the psyc paper tml! =)

yay the clinical assessment is finally over!! =) I managed to pass it! yea all those who took it today passed! =) the examiner who took me was really very lenient cuz at first wen i read my case scenario, i thot the first procedure was the oropharyngeal airway but it was actually oro suctioning.. and she gave me a chance to prepare my equips again.. i would have failed straight away.. hehe thk God for it.=))

oh yah.. sighs~ we took back our bio pract results today.. and i flunk the paper ='( sob.. i guess i have to work harder for the theory paper now.. =/

we went fish and co today at centrepoint.. and i ate the black pepper stingray, it was very nice esp the sauce.. yummie=)

Ps ( happy birthday twinnie ) hope u like the presents from us =)

suppie 
[R.I.P] suppie passed away today =( i think he got choked on the tissue that is supposed to keep him warm.. sighs i miss him loads.. now i noe the feeling of missing something wen it is not around - cherish wad u have!

today is the first service at Expo.. it was great! den after that we walked to the park.. supposed to run or walk... but we didnt.. den we sat down and talked for awhile.. yea after that some of us went tpy macs.. i studied awhile den went back home le.. im quite tired now....
feel like sleeping! oh noo.. i still wan to look thro my clinical bk.
nitey!
I MISS U badly!! u will always be in my heart ='(
next week is the last week of school -looking forward-=) haha.. 2 more papers and i am free from exams. this week we celebrated janis's birthday at J8 crystal jade.. we bought her a adidas watch.. hope u like it gal! i am thinking to buy it too.. wait till i get my allowance or something. =s -still thinking- =)
yesterday went to marine bay for steamboat with zy and dris.. we had a great time eating and catching up=) hope we can go again some other tym.. the food there nt bad!
today went to yi's house for cell den after that came back home.. its quite weird cuz i used to be out on sat den now service changed to sunday.. neway im anticipating for the service at Expo tml=) cant wait to see yt they all!
hmm i am getting tired while typing this entry.. yawns! my back is aching.. think cuz i mopped the floor just now.. haha i cooked cabonara for my bro and myself.. yea and i did all the washing n mopping lah.. he never help me! guys!? ...... =/

going off to study my clinical now! write notessss!... yesh i better go if nt later meowie will nag at me again! wahahahaa... she is indeed our mother! =)
I went to kay's place on friday night, bought her the guardian angel pig for christmas.. haha looks cute yea=) glad that she likes it =]

christmaspresentforkay=) 
weehee.. biology pract is finally OVER! cool! i can rest now.. hahaa. hmm the paper today was quite tough esp the theory part! oh my.. i pray hard that i will be able to pass it. yes wadever it is.. i will just leave it behind since its over. lets not talk about it=) there are 2 more papers.. nxt monday clinical assessment and nxt wed psychology paper.. hmm.. got to burn midnight oil! ohh i am scare for the clinical.. thats the most impt exam i think.. if we fail for it, we are not allow to go out for the attachment.. yea must study xtra hard!!! sighs.. i am going to look 'dead' next week.. lols.. daph and shikkin said that i looked 'dead' today =( i dont want to face people already.. LOL perhaps is because i dont have enough sleep.. yes i guess so.. need to replenish my sleep! i WILL sleep eaarly tonight;) and yeah im haemorrhage-ing laah... I need paracetamol!! arghh.. frustrated!! the pain can kill man!=( sobs

[me&her]
yawns.. i am using my 'resting' time to blog, studying bio at this late hour.. actually i am really tireed! but i have to continue... not much time left ='( still got a looong way to go.. *sighs* the consequence of last min work.. ..

yep my week was ookay.. met up with ling, anthony and glenn for dinner on friday. we met up at ps. hmm.. i think the meeting up was okie.. just that its a little short.. we went back after 2hrs?! cuz ling has volleyball training. sometimes i wonder when can she spare some time for the people around her? i feel like there's so much that i want to talk to her about yet at the same time i dunno wad to tok to her about. isit bcuz our friendship has drifted apart? i wish that i would turn back time.. to those time when we were very close.. i guess its pointless for me to say that cuz i noe it will never happen. i feel that it takes both sides to put in effort to maintain a friendship, it cant always be one sided.. cuz eventually the person will get very tired of it. hmm.. perhaps thats how i feel towards her.. i really dont understand..? isit so hard to love someone.. i feel that loving someone who is unlovable actually shows the meaning of love. bcuz when u learn to love that person.. u've learnt the meaning of true love.isnt it? if the person is lovable.. u wouldnt have difficulties at all.. hmm i noe thats not easy and i must admit that i'm not perfect and i do have my struggles.. but wadever it is.. i will learn it step by step bah.. there's a timing for everything, isnt it?

oh yea.. i was really blur that i left my thumb-drive at the eplaza on tues.. and wads more is that i only realised it on thurs.. hahaa. i was searching for it on thurs morning but wouldnt find=( so i tried to recall back where i left it.. and.. yea its at the eplaza =x . okie cut the story short.. i managed to get it back!! the person in charge actually found it and kept it for me.. so gald that it was found. honestly i didnt think that i would get it back.. thought someone has taken it.. haha but.... I DID yay~ thank God=)
okie i am going back to study now! =S