im so bloated,just came back not long ago after my reunion dinner.hmm..it was a great dinner,a time to catch up with one another=)I was quite glad to see granny today=)she looked very happy as we had dinner together!i felt that it was something that she yearned to see..like everyone come together as a family.

after dinner,daddy fetched granny and vigy back cuz my uncle send my 3rd aunt and family back home.hahaa on the way,daddy decided to go car spinning at chinatown to let granny see the lights decoration and the crowd..=) she was really happy when she looked out of the window.i really hope that she will be happy not only today but everyday..hahaa i am very close to her cuz since young she was the one who took care of me.I love her lots lots!!

yep,before dinner,in the afternoon..met up with twinnie at J8 to get the wallet.i got the red one as i've decided=)haaha it was funny la cuz i changed the wallet for 3 times..there are scratches on it..so yeah..since it is a new wallet..have to be more picky=)after that,shaun came to meet up with me..in the end we've decided to go orchard instead..went to far east and it was really really crowded at orchard!!after walking aimlessly at far east for like half an hour..we decided to head down to heeren.haha twinnie and i wanted to look at the havaianas slippers.in the end,we decided to get the ones without the brand..it is 1 for 6.90.hmm i got the yellow one but at first wanted the brown one,but no sizes already=(better luck next time.hahaa twinnie got her fav colour green and the brown one..both colours look great!ehh..we went to take neoprints together.the pics are not bad!after which,we left hereen and twinnie went back home.shaun accompanied me to OG cuz my parents are waiting for me there..yep he left after that..thks didi for accompanying me!and hope u like the journal=)

good night! HapPy cHinEse NeW YeAr eVe!
haaha i just woke up an hour ago..didnt go school today=).wanted to rest at home..and my flu is getting better! pray that it will recover completely.

yesterday's reunion dinner was alright..there were 2 tables..one for the adults and the other for the children and their mummies.hahaa i chose to sit with the children..oh they are so adorable!=)yep the dinner ended at about 10plus..went back home after that.as usual my parents decided to go chinatown again.lol.for me i was too tired to go anywhere,moreover it was because of the crowd there that i got my flu..if i go again..it will get worse!hmm..tonight there's another reunion dinner..this time is my mum's side=)yay~i will be able to see anqi and anting tonight!=D

right now going to pack my room le..it kind of messy!!really messy la!later meeting twinnie at J8 for awhile cuz we are getting the billabong wallet..decided to get it after much consideration=)yep den meeting shaun after that to pass him something.okay gotta stop here.=) tata

Ps ( Happy New Year everyone! )=D Enjoy your holidays!
I just came back home like a few hours ago,hmm today didnt attend psych lect.it starts at 5pm!den didnt want to wait for 3 hours so I went back home instead!=)I went back home with twinnie today,hahaa at first we planned to go home den in the end we decided to drop by at J8 cuz wanted to look at a billabong wallet..so we shopped for awhile.erm bought some stuffs and I bought a present for zoe.sighs she is going back to australia soon..on the 14th feb!i will miss her!!hmm cant wait to see her nxt tues=)anticipating!hehee.

I am having a bad flu!think i got it 2 days ago..after shopping at chinatown!sighs!i hate having flu,made me feel so tired and restless..made me slept during the 1029 lects today=/.hmm later going for reunion dinner..my dad's side..dun feel like going=s maybe because not very close to them.but since my mum said its a one year once thing so i have to go.1 hr more to go.

thanks for ur concern=) u noe who u all are! *appreciated*
Smile and i will smile too =)
sighs!woken up by my mum's voice!wads new?!both of them are quarreling again!!!!It has been like this for the past few days..I really had enough of it.one moment they seemed alright,the other moment,things changed and you see the other side of them.i dont understand why are they so sensitive,just the slightest thing..they can quarell like mad!I tried not to care but I cant..its bothering me!hais!I begin to dislike them..for them being this way..why cant they spare some thoughts for their children.I realised that there's no way to escape even though i tried many times not to care!because they are my parents..i do care!It just affect me very naturally..i cant control it.i think i felt better as i wrote down how i feel..i didnt know how to say perhaps writing down is a better way for me..like a stone has been taken off my heart. he talked to me just now..asking me to take my dinner..as i was still trying to go back to sleep.i didnt really want to say much..just said a word 'wait'...i dont feel like talking to them..i dont even want to look at them when they are talking to me!prehaps i am angry.. i dont wish that i am like this..i wish i would understand them.isnt new year supposed to be something happy?why issit that my parents kept making it become so unhappy?!im unhappy too..truly unhappy!='(
today was the first day of school after a long break..it was really TIRING to wake up at 6am! psychology lect was at 8am followed by bio and then lab. guess what? i fell asleep during the psych lect though it was ivan the one teaching. hahaa i guess i am too tired to concentrate or wadsoever..just TIRED! luckily tomorrow school starts at 1pm and ends at 6pm, yay! i am meeting shaun tml to bring him around nyp=) haaha private tour guide! lol.i think my parents are going chinatown again tonight,feel like going cuz thinking of doing the temporary tattoo..but im tired!=/ hahaa guess i will give it a miss, maybe go another day this week.

just now, I went to accompany janis to make spectacles at the market near my house, she was really fast in choosing the frame.hmm i think it looks nice on her!oh it is purple in colour!haahaa good choice gal!=)yep we ate chicken rice at the market before going back home.ermm..didnt meet up with meifeng in the end cuz both of us were tired so we concluded that we will meet another day which is very soon!=)really miss her loads..it has been some time since we last met and talked.MISS YOU!!!

hmm.. I miss lala and sf too!
remember this song? haahaa esp to sf.. do u remember our story behind it? its kind of funny! =D
my percious memories!


today cell was at bukit merah, hmm woke up at around 8am. haa thank God that i was able to wake up =) yesterday i was late for work.. woke up at 6am instead of 5am! i really jumped out of bed la.. and i took 5mins to prepare myself! hahaa.. unbelievable! cuz normally i took an hour to do so.heehe

yep the sharing of word during cell is okay.. hmm guess what nana said is right.. to teach is not only to impart knowledge but also to impart lives.. i guess i understood what she meant. haha i must say that this process isnt easy.. but i know God is there.. and i really want to grow more through all these. I felt that in different seasons, i will learn something new. I pray for His strength to keep me going=)be faithful.=)

after cell,we went to ikea..eat and shop.i ate swedish meatball and 2 chicken wings.so bloated!den after that went to bishan market with leb to cut his hair,we waited for 1 hour..lol..we went to drink at the kopi shop while waiting.yep after that leb went to cut his hair,haaha think he really cant bear to cut de..nvm lah..still look good okay;)

thats my day! =) going out for dinner le.
PS(blessed to have my spiritual family,thk God for each and everyone of them)
today is the last day of my attachment! finally 3 weeks have passed.hahaa. this attachment was quite fun=)learned more things..meaning must do more too.lol..hai i start to miss the people there already..esp the 2 cubicles that daph and I took care of..misses them..hahaa maybe because of the time we spend there..has already build up some relationships with the patients. hope they get well soon!!hahaa thinking back of what we have did in the ward..it is pretty interesting.lol.memories! haha oh yeah today..me,daph,twinnie & pupu tried to cut the fingernails of bed 75 popo..lol..we really had a hard time,she was really stroong la!haha she tried to pinch and scratch us..poor daph..got scratched by her dunno for how many times already.its uncountable! hahaa finally after struggling, we managed to cut away her long fingernails.I think its better for her la..hygiene purposes. felt that she is quite pitiful..been in the hosp for like 6mths=(..and she is bed bounded..cant walk and cant talk clearly.sometimes..seeing her like this made me feel quite upset.haha.. think daph also feel that way..cuz the way she held her hands..was filled with affection=)lol..neway yeah i guess we have already did our best..hahaa we really worked a lot!perhaps that the reason why we eat a little more than usual too..cant blame!=x

yeps moday school begins!cant wait to go back!cant wait to see the rest of my classmates=) anticipating!!!!
2 more days to the end of my attachment~
ermm.. today was a busy day!!!! there were only 5 student nurses to take care of 6 cubicles.. hahaa we worked double today compare to other days. yea.. the workload was lots more and our legs are aching badly!! sob! can see green veins appearing on both my leg =/..

neway this ward 12C is really a fun ward to be in.. esp the male side cubicle one, daph and I called it our 'amusement park'! lol we had hard time as well as our fun time!hahaa esp the cubicle one, bed 80! and the popo at bed 64!our all time favourite~=P hahaha i will miss those patients!hehe. hmm tomorrow have to wake up at 5am.... the thought of it now makes me feel so.. tired and sian!yawns..i guess i will have a hard time waking up at 5am!hai!no matter what I must persevere on!!JIAYOU!=)goodnight!
just came back home not long ago.
tml is the second week of my attachment le soon i'll be back in school again =) yay~
hmm did my care plan already.. hope the lecturer will approve it tml! *prays hard*
feeling very tired now~ yawns... going to do my qt before I sleep. =)
nites people ;)
it has been raining for the past few days! good weather to stay at home and sleep! =) today is my second day of attachment and it seemed like i have been there for more than 2 days..

eh.. i did a wound dressing today.. it was so so last minute.. i had to crack my brain to think for each single step!=( hahaa.. and some parts i did wrongly lah.. =x and the lecturer was beside me.. talking non-stop- sighs. I feel like a guinea pig cuz the people were standing around me observing- stressed! yah in the end i managed to pass it.. yay! finally i can put this off my mind for the time being.. now i can go think about the care plan. so far.. it has been so good in the ward.. i think the previous one that i went was too 'scary' that nothing can ever be compared to it anymore.. LOL.. yea at least in this ward i am able to rest.. the previous one was a super busy ward! =/ yep.. tml my shift will be in the afternoon.. that means i can wake up later =D haahaa i really need lots of rest! been in the morning shifts for 2 days.. and i always feel tired and sleepy after I reach home.. erm.. and I never fail to take a 'evening nap'.. yeah sooo i am looking forward for tml's afternoon shift.. though i think it seems longer and harder to pass. 2 more days to the weekends!!! =) counting down~

I met up with ling yesterday.. to pass her the present.. i had a great time seeing her unwrapping the present! i think there are 30 plus layers of papers.. and each layer has words on it =) - gal I hope u like the present! thks for the cheesecake that u baked! hehe.. unlike of you to bake.. you really gave me a surprise! thks gal!
..and I am looking forward to our chalet! =p
I read what u wrote... and it hurts me to see what u felt about me.. i guess..ur referring to me. i dOnt noe wad have i done to make u feel that way.. i really dont. perhaps u might think that i dont care enough, dont bother about you enough.. dont spend time with u enough... do all that mean i dont care and love you? NO it dont! if you think that it does.. den i am sorry... i am struggling too.. i cant live up to ur expectations. u might think that my life is perfect now.. i can tell u.. it is not.. no one is ever perfect on earth, u dont understand how i feel cuz u dont noe my struggles.. perhaps somethings u never noe cuz i never show or share with u.. i have my reasons for that.. i didnt want it to affect u. i am very upset about how u feel towards me all this while... it seems like im accused of something that i have never done before. you understand how i feel? maybe u dont.. ur just implying all the expectations u have on me.. and i admit i cant fit up to all those expectations.. im a human too.. with feelings and thoughts. sometimes.. i dont know what to say to u.. it is not that im avoiding u or dont care for u.. cuz i needed time desperately.. for u and i to cool down and sort things out.. but i guess it leads to further misunderstandings. for myself.. i needed that time.. for u i guess u think that i dont care.. and it became wad it is today. i feel very stress up.. about how u feel and how u think about me when i am not like that.. please dont ever try to define me.. it just hurts me more. i noe ur feeling very lost and upset about all the changes ur facing now.. i feel upset too.. but i guess u think otherwise of me. i dont know what to do now.. really dont.. i really dont know what ur thinking at times.. maybe only God can help us.. im letting go. I wrote this is for u.. not because im blaming u or wad.. i really want u to noe how i feel.. how i reallly really feel.. and i hope u do understand.. i really love u.. and i dont want this to happen too.. ur someone who is dear to me.. close to me.. please dont ever let this relationship be broken.. i hope we can sort things out.. not habouring any anger.. towards each other. gal.. i might have done something that hurts u.. im sorry.. u need to noe that im imperfect too.. yeah.. i just hope that the next time when we talk.. we will listen to each other not in a judgmental spirit.. but with an understanding heart. really pray for that to happen
I just woke up an hr ago.. ard 10.15am! guess what i slept from 7.30pm last night till 10.15am this morning =X that is about 15hrs !!! this tells how tired I am... lol =S

sobsob missed the 9pm show last nite, wanted to watch it but I overslept! really didnt hear my hp alarm rang! i remember setting it at 8.30pm.. wonders.. maybe i off it.. hahaa. that is possible right- yes! hmm later meeting ling.. yay finally can pass her the birthday present.. though it is 6 days late.. haahaa glad that she is not working today.. if not it will continue to drag on further. ermm.. wonder what she is making.. or baking.. didnt hear her clearly over the phone.. lolx if she bakes im very surprised! =) yea i will noe it later neway..heehe

oh yea the exams timetable is out!! can check out at the e-servcies =) it is very very soon.. got to start sudying already esp for my bio =( think i need to get a B to pass the overall.. meowie.. u got to help daph and I.. lol
today is my first day at ttsh ward 12C, I can say that this ward that i am in now is better than the previous one.. in a way not as busy as before lah.
I am assigned to the male cubicles.. different from daph! yaaaah.. the patients are mainly on fall risk. aiyoh super stress lah.. must make sure they are looked after when they go toilet to bathe or something. and there are lots of wound care.. i think we can practise our wound dressing as many times as we want.. haha..
yeah we have to do care plan again... every attachment surely will have this.. sighs!
Hope that i will bring back something after these 2 weeks =)
yawns sleepy mode! legs aching =(
today woke up at 8am, yawns went for Sol2.. learned about the G12 vision=) i think i understand it deeper now. yea after that we went expo for service, janis came for service today.. finally after quite some time, she is able to come =) glad that u came today.. and also she made her decision to accept Christ,thk God!I pray that u will continue to trust in Him. yep after service, i went out wif shaun, kris n leb to bishan.. yea den shaun bought his bible. hmm went out with my family for dinner, my bro gave us a treat at 'the vines seafood n steak restaurant' =) =) the food is so yummy! think i put on a few more kg!='( yea had a great time with my family, it has been quite some time since we sit down and eat together... ya i am really glad ! =D tml going for attachment, waking up at 5am............... sighs! but im happy too because im able to see them =) haahaa yay daph we are finally in the same hospital amd shift =)
hey
i am back from the polyclinic!=) basically i went there just to OBSERVE hahahaa! stand beside the nurse to observe what she says and does to the patient.. *my legs are aching nw* it was much 'free-er' compared to the attachment in hospital. yea.. hmm I found the place tog with xiaolan=) in the end i met her at typ interchange den took 238 to the polyclinic. yeps thats my day=) ohh yea.. I saw daphy in 410 on my way back home.. hahaha her uniform and HAIR caught my attention.. lol i cant wait to go ttsh with u!!! 6 more days =D
morning........................ @_@ so sleeepy! 9hours of sleep is not enough for me.. lol.. today is the first day of my attachment to typ polyclinic. guess what? until now i still dont have an idea of how to get there?! perhaps only a rough idea?? hahaha but i believe i will be able to find it by faith=) yeaah i will continue to blog when i reach home .. ;)

to be continued....

myjunkies 

me&lebby-on our way back 

us at the Expo! 
went for the new year bash at expo! overall it was really great!! the worship and performance.. were powerful.
eh mei and chris danced on the stage too=) dearies u did a great job! hehee.
hmm I invited shaun to this new year bash and he asked his 2 friends along too.. in the end 1 of them accepted Christ, the other planned to join the cell too.. i can say it was really amazing =) thk God for that!