Wednesday, December 10, 11:18 AM
woke up at 11am today! felt like there is ample rest for myself cos i rested early last night (: im glad I've him with me though the night was short, i still appreciate it very much! ily(: Ehs im on pm shift today, eeks im nervous!! might be doing the role of a NIC today, it will be my first time in my past 8months of work. I pray for God's wisdom when im in the process of making decisions and also confidence in the things I do. I need to stay calm!!! hahas! yups, wo ke yi de! :D

received this verse from living faith church by sms today,
ISA 26:4 Trust ye in the Lord forever: for in the Lord Jehovah is everlasting strength.

Amen! I do not need to depend on my own strength because His is everlasting (:

Tuesday, December 9, 3:05 PM
i was on MC ysd and on PH today! 2 days without work :D smiling away. I feel much better after popping a few tablets down my throat. Ahh this time round, I make a promise to myself that I'll take my medications at the right time and the right dosage. I want to get well (:

thank God that they have arrived at their destination safely, I know they are under the wings of God. Hope they will enjoy themselves to their fullest! My dad and I are left in Spore, hope the next round we can all travel together as a family. It has been awhile since we last travelled together, I think the last time was like 1oyears back? Hmmm.. I'll start to plan 0ne soon and start saving aside an amount of money too. Heehe!

today, I went visit my granny at my uncle's place, bought her some kuahs to eat as snacks. guess she was very happy when she saw me.. cos' she feels rather lonely. I always tell myself I'll try t0 spend as much time as I could with her. She is old and weaker compared to the past. If there is one thing I could ask for, I just hope she is happy, there's nothing else I would ask for. I love her very much cos' since young I have been very close to her. She took great care of me, actually not just myself but my brother and 2 cousins too!! She is the greatest grandma in my heart. I love you my grandma! (:

Sunday, December 7, 11:52 PM
I sang this song, 'Amazing Grace' at service today. His presence was there! The lyrics of the song ministered me during the worship and tears started flowing down. My heart was 'harden up' for the past few weeks/months.. cos' many changes took place and many things had happened. I couldn't sense His presence at times but today the warmth of His love just filled my heart once again. He seems to be telling me this, "My child, I know, I know what you are going through." (: I felt His love so real.. thank You for Your unfailing love even though I have forsaken You at times. Thank You for Your grace, Your never never ending grace even though I have sinned against You. God, sometimes, I feel unworthy for Your love but You tell me I am worthy. Thank You. My God is indeed a great God! Lord, I will continue to trust in You that You will walk with me through the ups and downs. Lord, I pray that You will make me to be the salt and the light in my workplace that I may demonstrate Your love towards them. Lord, teach me to love and to persevere. Amen!

Some updates for the week,
I was deployed to Hougang to work for a week. Thank God! It was a great experience. I really thank God cos' at first I thought it was really BAD to be deployed to some strange place.. where I do not exactly know the people well. I was kind of lonely I feel.. however, now that I thought back, it was not that bad actually! I felt it was good cos' I was stretched like a rubber band to the maximum I could go. In my workplace (tpy), it was as if only 1/4 of the rubber band was being stretched, I couldn't learn very much. Now, I feel I could handle better when things get tensed up! I know God knows the limit I could go :D Yups! I will be back to where I belonged tomorrow and I will be doing NIC (nurse in-charge), I pray for wisdom and confidence! I believe I can do it! (: getting excited!

Not forgetting, I met my dearest mui on wednesday, we went to ECP! Finally, I could breathe some fresh air. I love to go to the beach, sit down somewhere and chat with my friends.. the feeling is undescrible man! hehes! chat with my mui under the tree.. so "lan man" right!?(: I enjoyed the heart to heart talk with her. Thank God for this sister of mine! Oh yea we took many pictures too, the view of the sea and clouds were splendid! We had great time self timing the pictures until some "ah ne ne" came and tried to snap us secretly. We just walked away lah.. sighs.. left speechless. Anyway, thanks sister for your understanding (: I am still making the decision, need serious thoughts regarding the issue. Meanwhile, please keep me in your prayers too, thanks!