Tuesday, September 30, 12:44 AM
its the end of the month again and also the busiest day for me. did the 1,3,5 billing myself today. it was quite tiring. i've to start and end patients and on the other hand doing the billing. hahas! however, really thank God for my colleague, she helped me a lot in the nursing care for patients so that I could finish up my work. did help her a little but she's really a great help to me! thanks Nep! :D the battle goes on, i've to complete all (1,3,5 plus 2,4,6) patients' bills tml! work hard!

ysd at church service, Pastor Khong preached from matt 22:36-40, the message was, living in a love driven community. its was about loving one another. how to love one another. Pastor said cell group is a place where we learn to love cos many different kind of people exist in the cell. we need to learn to accept each others' differences and love them for who they are. it was pretty amazing cos i prepared a message from 1 John 3:16-20 about loving one another for my cell. both messages were on love. too bad my girls couldnt make it for cell but i can still preach to them on the next cell meeting lahs. yep, i attended cell after 3wks or so? it was good hearing one another's sharing, at first i wont deny i feel weird having 3-4 new people in the cell. now.. as i got more used to it, find it rather okays. hahas! time will make us bond together i think. yeps!

thinking back at the past week, many things happened.. heard about a friend of mine who was admitted to the hospital and is suffering from a stroke. i was shocked when i heard that, i cried cos its so sudden... and she's so young! anyway, the latest news that i heard was that she has been out of the icu and is at the normal ward now. Praise God! all our prayers He has answered! another friend of mine had just lost her mother few days ago, it was a sudden death.. and i feel sad for her too. just hope she feels better now, may the peace of God be with her. everything happened one day after another, within 2 days, i received these 2 news, it left me thinking why is life so fragile and uncertain? then again, i thought.. God has His timing for everything and everything that happened, He has His reason for it. trust in His plans!

looking forward to wednesday! its a sweet 16 anniversary :) we wont be alone, going to meet up with msb's friends for steamboat. yeps! sometimes its good to hang out in a group too! hehs

* excited doing/ thinking of ideas for msb's birthday present! :D

Sunday, September 21, 1:56 AM
im sick, down with flu.. arghs cant sleep :( it might be because of the milk tea I drank during dinner time. I should have know that!

anyways, i went to kallang leisure shopping mall with dear today. Its the official grand opening, there were lion dance performance.. etc. hmm, the mall definitely looks more atttractive than before. Shopping wise very limited mostly are for entertainment purposes. We went to the arcade and play the "piano notes" game, it was so fun! I had a photo shot after the game, second or third in place, couldnt really remember. hahas! after that, we went to makan at the foodcourt. after makan, we continue roaming around, saw this christian shop and we went in, bought 2 car tags for bro and dad. Dear said he wants to bless them with the tags. They look good (: hees! yeps, after walking around K.L.M, we took a bus down to dhoby ghaut. we shopped for awhile and headed back to Sengkang. We rested at home for abt 3hrs before heading for dinner. dear cycled me to buangkok and then to hougang mall for dinner. it was a nice ride.. at first i was scare that i might fall off if he loses his balance. however, he did it very smoothly, thanks dear! it was a great ride :D

so much for today, lets update alil about ysd. met up with yi and xb. initially, we planned to go cash studio for ktv session. however, things went alil wrong.. so we didnt go. its ok, there is still alternatives. mui suggested to go mt faber. cool! xb drove up to the hill bistro at mt faber. we had calamari, wings and pussy cat for supper. great hang out place.



Friday, September 19, 8:55 AM
2nd day of my leave.

yesterday as mentioned, I was supposed to be at Ecp roller blading with her BUT in the end it didnt happen. Sighs.. dont want to emphasize on it! The storm was over. Let the past be a past.. at least I realised something.

My plans were kind of interrupted ysd so I stayed at home and bake cookies. It was self satisfying (: bake a lot that they could be contained in 3 boxes. Made the egg, ham and cheese sandwiches for my loves too. msb said its nice (: thanks! *glad



im going to meet ium and xb tonight, going to cash studio as suggested by ium. looking forward to it. i want to eat tom yam at the chinatown hawker centre... cravings. ;p



my pre and post baking









Wednesday, September 17, 11:52 PM
exams over! wee~

on annual leave for 3 days :) its approved!

finally, I could take some time off to breathe

going blading with ling tml! looking forward
thankful!
I went to the new DC ysd and it was not as bad as i thought it will be. Indeed, the Lord has His purpose for everything that happened. Trust in Him!


pics taken before the paper


ps: dearest ium, always know that I am here with you, your struggles are real and just to let you know your are never alone. Daddy and Jie are here with you, holding your hands (:

Tuesday, September 16, 11:59 AM
is there a shoulder that I could rely on?

, 9:01 AM
words i am lost for it.. dont exactly know what to blog yet i've the urge to write something. perhaps i dont exactly know how to translate my feelings into words. maybe one word and this is it, "why"..

im on pm shift today at the new DC.. this day came at last and not really looking forward to. yep! woke up very early around 8.3oam. because i couldnt go back to sleep. was thinking about so many things.. which i know i shouldnt have. i really want to die to myself and allow Him to use me in the plan He had for me. i feel different from the past especially after i started work, everything seemed to be just different. work cant be an excuse for everything i've done, it must be myself, my heart. i want that heart back again for Him..! i want to have that childlike faith again and obey His words. i feel drifted away.. but i just couldnt convince myself that i am. i didnt want to face it cos im an escapist at times. i want to be an encourager to people and not someone who always grumble her way through EVERYTHING! im mad about myself cos i feel i grumble too much.. about my job etc... give me a heart of graditute that in all circumstances good/bad, I'll still give thanks.

letting go
letting go
letting go

, 12:51 AM
Just want to upload some pics for this year Lantern festival..

Wonderful time with my family at Bishan Park



















, 12:24 AM
my annual leave has been approved, thank God for that (: however, sister told me, whoever takes AL, HL or MC will be the first to get deploy to other DC for learning experience. Thus, i'll be the first to go among the SNs.. and because another SN is taking AL around the same time as me, both of us have to draw lots to see who go first. Yah, im the luckier one who got the "yes" lot, i was shocked at that moment of time. It left me nothing to say at all, i just have to go... so i agreed. there arent much of a choice except to go. sometimes, i dont understand why? AL is meant to be an entitlement and not a punishment, it seems like its the other way round now. I dont know how i should be feeling? its a mixture.. dreading to go yet feeling alil excited to go! arghh.. i just cant simply tell myself its for experience sake and just go.. i feel its rather unfair at times. yep! tml will be my first day at that DC, wonder how will it be like? so many uncertainities.. its like fear of the unknown. the staffs, the patients? how will they react? arghh... i want peace! anyway, ill be counting down for these 7 days.. hopefully eveything goes on well.. I pray..and I pray..

to be or not to be?

Friday, September 12, 9:51 AM
[v1:] take time to realize,
That your warmth is. crashing down on in.
Take time to realize, That i am on your side Didn't i, didn't i tell you.
But i can't spell it out for you, No it's never gonna be that simple
No i cant spell it out for you

[c:] if you just realize what i just realized
,Then we'd be perfect for each other
And will never find another Just realized what i just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now.

[v2:] take time to realize Oh-oh i'm on your side
Didn't i, didn't i tell you.T ake time to realize
This all can pass you by.. didn't i tell you
But i can't spell it out for you,
No its never gonna be that simple No i can't spell it out for you.

[c:] if you just realized what i just realized Then we'd be perfect for each other
Then we'd never find another Just realized what i just realized
We'd never have to wonder if We missed out on each other now.

[v3:] it's not always the same No it's never the same
If you don't feel it to. If you meet me half way If you would meet me half way.
It could be the same for you.

[c:] if you just realized what i just realized Then we'd be perfect for each other
Then we'd never find another Just realized what i just realized
We'd never have to wonder Just realized what i just realized


it takes two to make it work out





, 12:00 AM
back home from work. work ended late, around 11pm and im on late shift today meaning closing door. i saw the roster for next week and my AL was indicated in the roster, looks like the staffing is enough. i pray that sister will approve after she looks at it. i think i'll know the answer tml but im already very HAPPY now! hope its not a disappointing one, *cross finger*




being happy is a choice

Wednesday, September 10, 11:00 PM
want to upload some pics due to boredom. *grin
Mr Tan bought us mooncakes from Season,


for sweet tooth,


I took the green one, love bin bi mooncake!

also I bought a new pair of sports shoe from sportslink on monday, thanks msb for the accompany (:
KPE run, here I come! :D

, 5:46 PM
had 3 days of Am shift, dead tired =* yups! im Pm shift tomorrow (: can rest! I need that! I cant wait for my off day, its saturday!!!!! TGIS! lols~ lazy to continue blogging. tatas







Freedom~

Sunday, September 7, 10:21 PM
sometimes, i feel this job robs much of my time? am I complaining? hahas! yea perhaps i am.. sighs.. i feel weekends are very important to me as these 2 days are kind of "family day"... haven been talking to my parents or brother for awhile.. i just cant find time. after pm shift, i'll be dead tired when i reached home.. next day am shift again. these 2 weeks have been like this. yikes!

ysd i did a pm shift, ended work around 1030pm and i was supposed to close door. thank God, neptune closed for me and she asked me to go off first. yep! reached home around 11pm.. dead tired but i slept around 2am. chatted with yiyi for awhile.. haven been catching up with her too.. miss her much. sometimes, i feel as we grow up, a lot of things will change too.. feel like im missing the past.. but we all gotta MOVE ON~ no matter what, i still love her much (: always know that okies?

today, im so so happy that i could spend time with my family. in the morning, we went for breakfast at coffee bean. we were discussing about an end year trip... (: excited and I PRAY VERY HARD that my AL will be approve! i've a hard time getting my AL, dont know whats wrong with the system too! arghs~ yep, the 5 of us witnessed my bro's end of first phase for his baptism at his church. am glad that he's getting to know God more.. another 7 more months.. go brother! have faith! really had a wonderful time with them today!! it feels like ages since i last went out with them. i want to cherish them more...










decisions making are part life...
lead me Lord, teach me your way

Thursday, September 4, 1:06 PM
I am not afraid of anything in this world, there's nothing you can throw at me that I havent already heard, I am just trying to find a decent melody, a song that I can sing in my own company. Just changed my blog's song to U2's stuck a moment. I've liking for lazy voice (:

a long wednesday I had, left my house at 6.15am and got home around 9.30pm. I am out for like more than 12hrs. let me think back about yesterday. I remember in the morning when i was just finishing with the normal rountine, sister came to me and said this, " you will be attending the NC, NM, SN meeting today". My immediate stupidy reaction was like, '' HUh"? Hahahas! She added, "you will be going alone representating typ". I was like.... this..... ... speechless and nodded my head. I didnt know what was going on in those meetings cos I never attended one before. I asked around and noted down what roughly will be discussed in the meeting. Yups, I left my workplace around 1.15pm as the meeting starts at 2pm. I was the first to reach cos I cabbed down. After 15mins, many started turning up, I tried talking to a few of them... they are all very senior.. I am for sure the youngest among them. The meeting went on for hours, it ended around 5,30pm. I took down minutes for the meeting, had to present it later at work. Actually, thinking back about yesterday, I felt it was a good experience, I kind of think its not that scary afterall. hahas! Remembering the bible says, " do not look down on yourself because you are young but set a good example..." Yea! There's nothing to be afraid of! After meeting, it was around 5.3opm and it was raining so heavily. Thank God! He send me my prince. hahas! Dear was around my area and he was just travelling back to his company. So I asked if he could pick me up? Thank God he said oookays! I dont have to walk in the rain cos I didnt bring my umbrella. Waited for him for awhile. I was so happy when I saw him, couldnt let the smile on my face disappear.. I accompanied him to his workplace and alighted outside as he still needs to do some stuffs. I went to the nearest fastfood which is kfc and ordered something to eat. I was very hungry cos didnt have time to eat before the meeting. I waited for dear at kfc, haha im smart to bring my lappy out. :D He came to find me after 45mins, we went to shop for mooncake, wanted to buy for each others' parents. we bought the ones from





From me for dear's papa
From dear for my mum- assorted flavors


for grandma
we had fun time choosing the flavors (:
It rained so heavily! thanks dear for carrying all of that back to my place!
Loveu!