today went to east coast for cell outing.. yeps den some of them went cycling while me, nana & yi went blading.. aww my legs so suan now.. *tired* haahas it was quite fun =) erm... oh ya sobz i fell down wif yiyi.. somemore same position..*so paisah* lol and my left thigh & butt are still aching now.. hopefully the ache will go away in a day or 2. hmm.. today we went to tc for service.. i miss tc.. hehe can see many familiar faces.. saaw meifeng and cher today.. yeahs.. after service went to meet a fren.. wanted to have a talk wif her.. hmm actually i really dun noe wad and how to start to tell her wads on my mind.. i really pray very hard.. cuz i dun wish her to misunderstand wad i said.. yeps sometimes i really wonder how much i said went into her.. maybe wad i said is something that she doesnt wants to hear.. I felt the pain in my heart seeing her like this.. seeing her being so indecisive in somethings, seeing her slowly ruining her life.. I feel i can do lots more but at the same time I know no matter how hard i tried to change her.. i will not succeed cuz im not the one that controls her life.. I cant make decisions for her.. bcuz first its her life and second i dun have the authority to change her or control things.. i can only guide her. actually from this.. i feel that there is something for me to learn and that is to let go of things that i noe im not in control of.. i guess im trying hard to do something that is not up to my ability.. and oso im carrying someone else's burden which there isnt a need to be..as for now i guess i have to have faith and believe that one day she will see the light and be saved.. hmm.. it is only trials that we will learn things that are precious=)