back from the camp
Friday, December 23, 10:53 AM
I am back from the camp 2 days ago! hmm.. my feelings after the camp were sort of a mixed kind.. firstly i felt quite confuse with the things going on during some of the sessions. i guess only meowie can understand how i felt cuz the both of us have some common thoughts. I felt that this camp was emphasizing too much on winning, it was competitive.. that i would see how realistic this world can be.. how one can break the trust in order to win.. just because of the word WIN! hahaa.. it sounds cruel.. yeah i have experienced that in the camp. hmm there's a part whereby the instructor asked us, 'we play to win or we play to lose', he was trying to get the message to us that we play to win.. yeah i agreed to a certain extent that we play to win.. i mean we should set goals in lives and try to achieve them but what if we didnt succeed.. does that mean that we are failures? this was one topic that someone in a way 'debated' with the instructor, the student was saying that it is when we lose.. we will gain much more.. so that we learn from our mistakes and improve on.. for me i agreed on wad he said. the instructor agreed it too.. i felt that it is the way he teaches, it is nt clear enough and it might be the reasons why we disagreed.. so the best solution is to clarify things with him.. and that was what some of the students did on the last day of the camp.. it caused the session to go on for 1hr plus when it was supposed to be only half an hr.

i felt that everyone has their own point of view, thats why we think and act differently.. so we cant possibly change one person's perspective with ur own.. and i felt that the values each has are different too. in this camp.. they showed 'leadership' as something so 'wow'.. hope u can wad i mean.. cant think of a word.. =x yeah.. like so 'domineering'... i guess all of us should work together as a team and not about one man show. yes i agreed on a point the instructor said.. he said that in a team, there cannot be no 'I' meaning myself.. the 'I' refers individual.. nt individualism cuz we dont play our own game.. we played as a team. but we need to be there so the game can play on. hmm i discovered some things about myself too in this camp, there was a voting session in our own small group and each of us are given one ice cream sticks each to vote. there were 12 members in a small group, each of us is supposed to stand and hold a cup so that the members can vote.. that moment was quite intense.. cuz the truth will surfaced.. we were supposed to vote according to whether that person has given in her/his 100% during the camp. yea.. i think i was the fifth or sixth person that went up.. at first.. i thought there will be one or two votes.. hmm but there were 6 people who voted for me.. but i didnt vote myself reason being is because.. i noe i have not given my 100%.. i noe i can push myself more but i didnt.. my mentor in the grp asked me why did i stopped halfway.. he said that i was halfway there? wad made me stop there? haha i can still remember what he asked me loh.. yeah he is the mr WHY guy.. he just loves to ask why.. i think it is good cuz it makes u think more.. more about yourself. yeah i told him it is because i didnt want to move out of my comfort zone.. and he said yes.. that is why. hmm i guess that is the main reason why it stopped me from achieving more. yep i recognised this not just during this camp but it is something that i've always been struggling.. and i felt that it is time that i should take one step away from that zone. I believe that we can reach up to our 100% if we want to. I have seen the impossible during the camp esp from chewie.. chew if ur reading this.. i just want to say that, u've really given ur 100% during this camp.. i noe u told me that u were forced to.. but still u actually did all those things that u never thought of yourself doing right.. at least for me.. i felt that way.. haha u really impressed me! =)

thats about the camp.. tata