me to you
Tuesday, January 10, 1:12 PM
I read what u wrote... and it hurts me to see what u felt about me.. i guess..ur referring to me. i dOnt noe wad have i done to make u feel that way.. i really dont. perhaps u might think that i dont care enough, dont bother about you enough.. dont spend time with u enough... do all that mean i dont care and love you? NO it dont! if you think that it does.. den i am sorry... i am struggling too.. i cant live up to ur expectations. u might think that my life is perfect now.. i can tell u.. it is not.. no one is ever perfect on earth, u dont understand how i feel cuz u dont noe my struggles.. perhaps somethings u never noe cuz i never show or share with u.. i have my reasons for that.. i didnt want it to affect u. i am very upset about how u feel towards me all this while... it seems like im accused of something that i have never done before. you understand how i feel? maybe u dont.. ur just implying all the expectations u have on me.. and i admit i cant fit up to all those expectations.. im a human too.. with feelings and thoughts. sometimes.. i dont know what to say to u.. it is not that im avoiding u or dont care for u.. cuz i needed time desperately.. for u and i to cool down and sort things out.. but i guess it leads to further misunderstandings. for myself.. i needed that time.. for u i guess u think that i dont care.. and it became wad it is today. i feel very stress up.. about how u feel and how u think about me when i am not like that.. please dont ever try to define me.. it just hurts me more. i noe ur feeling very lost and upset about all the changes ur facing now.. i feel upset too.. but i guess u think otherwise of me. i dont know what to do now.. really dont.. i really dont know what ur thinking at times.. maybe only God can help us.. im letting go. I wrote this is for u.. not because im blaming u or wad.. i really want u to noe how i feel.. how i reallly really feel.. and i hope u do understand.. i really love u.. and i dont want this to happen too.. ur someone who is dear to me.. close to me.. please dont ever let this relationship be broken.. i hope we can sort things out.. not habouring any anger.. towards each other. gal.. i might have done something that hurts u.. im sorry.. u need to noe that im imperfect too.. yeah.. i just hope that the next time when we talk.. we will listen to each other not in a judgmental spirit.. but with an understanding heart. really pray for that to happen