Sunday, November 30, 10:07 AM
it was a great saturday yesterday! went to sentosa with dear & his friends. at night, with his family to celebrate the brothers' belated birthday. we had steamboat at bei shang chuan at vivo. GREAT day uh! ever since I started working, most saturdays are occupied with work & nothing else. sometimes, I really want the normal working hours but I know its not the time now to make a change. I need the experience and pay! yups, I need to work harder when I am still young.

Received a news yesterday.. perhaps a bad one when I first heard.
I struggled very much at first when I heard I am deployed to other place to work again! My reaction was like WHAT me again?! X9*%EI@#(*@! Seriously, I was damn fed up! My dearest NM said every staff nurses will have their turn once! Me? This is my second time being deployed! What is fairness??????!!!! Argh~ I called her up and asked, the explanation she gave was because of the timing. Just because the other place need staff now and just the "right" time I came back from AL, I will be the one! I am such a lucky girl right?! She added thats her policy and no one can change it?! MC and AL became a scary thing uh, anytime can get deployed! At first, I was like complaining this and that but I felt I missed out an important factor. Yes, I will still feel its unfair and I do not like her so called policy BUT deployment is not a bad thing overall. I still get the same pay anyway, in the end I gain much more too and better performanace since i am willing to be deployed. I mean where's my choice right? I still have to go. I told myself, I will not focus on the fairness, I will just focus on the job! Sometimes, we really need to cool down before we can think rationally (: